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中文
- 这是排练前
- 我现在已经排完整场了
- 我开始也以为是坏了，放在别人手上就是好的，80左右
- 现在运动完，就一百多
- 最近血压有点冲顶
- 气得
- 晚上脸都涨红了
- 我还怕是发烧，吃了酚咖片。
- 但头不痛
- 就是发热，出汗，喘
- 我生气的点不是骂工作室，有时候工作室做事慢我也焦虑我也天天吼的
- 我生气的点是通过这天，好多的给我的言论让我感觉到，自己就是个工具
- 不顾我死活
- 根本没站在我的立场上思考
- 都已经没站在我的立场上思考了，为什么还要来教育我？
- 而且人还挺多
- 我很心寒。
- 很多话我不直说，肯定有我的理由，而且我知道也有人懂我，也不是全世界都不理解我，所以我不会说得那么绝。但也不代表我就是错的。
- 我没错。
- 我自己做的就是最正确的决定。
- 少管我。
- 我知道我看起来很有主见，会显得不可控。会更讨人厌。但是我的血压告诉我，这样不顾我的死活，我又何必在乎。
- 我也没必要跟每个人解释为什么。
- 现在心率依然没下过105
- 看看明天吧
- 我都因为被气到。连音乐剧都不紧张了。麻了
- 也许当天就紧张了吧。
- 什么家暴？没有。就是相互的相扑运动。
- 是我情绪太上头了，这也是我不开直播的原因。。我冷静几天。
English
- These were the readings before rehearsal.
- I've now completed a full run-through.
- Initially thought the device was faulty, but it worked fine on others, showing a heart rate of around 80.
- Post-exercise, it's now over 100.
- Lately my blood pressure’s been hitting the roof
- Probably got worked up from the irritation
- My face is all flushed in the evening.
- Worried it was a fever, I took some antipyretics.
- No headache
- Just feeling hot, a sweat breakout, and gasping for air.
- I'm not just irked by people criticizing the studio; sometimes, their slowness frustrates me too, and I find myself venting out my irritation.
- What truly gets to me is the sensation that, through the discourse of that day, I'm perceived merely as a tool
- devoid of any concern for my personal or emotional state
- It bewilders me how, without attempting to empathize with my perspective, some still feel entitled to lecture me.
- And so many people did this
- It’s disheartening
- My silence on certain matters doesn't equate to lack of justification; there are those who understand my stance, reassuring me that not the entire world is oblivious to my reasons. This acknowledgment doesn't necessarily validate my actions as faultless
- I’m right
- The decisions I make are in my best interest.
- Mind your own business
- I yearn for lesser intrusion in my affairs, recognizing that my assertiveness might not be universally appealing and could indeed stir annoyance. However, my escalating blood pressure serves as a reminder: if my welfare isn't their priority, why should I prioritize theirs?
- There's no obligation on my part to elucidate my reasoning to everyone.
- My heart rate, persistently above 105
- prompts a reflection on the potential consequences for tomorrow.
- The aggravation has dulled my usual pre-performance nerves for the musical
- possibly until the moment of performance arrives.
- What domestic violence? No, it's just mutual sumo wrestling.
- I got too emotional, which is why I didn't stream live... I'll cool down for a few days.
